[X] My Assistant

[The_Lawyer]

In 2nd period today, there was a question on the board for extra credit. It was "What event in history changed Alaska into what it is today?" .. Or something like that. I was bored and didn't give a shit, so I just wrote down "Jesus' second coming being covered up by Mormons." The teacher, an uptight and overbearing lady, turns out to be a Mormon. I got a little lecture and whatnot.

But it helped. It's probably teenage rebellion. Sticking it to the man and that bullshit, but it DID help. An outlet that isn't... I don't know, hitting kids or cutting myself. Neither I'm too motivated to act out.

So I was wondering what you think of that and maybe even how to improve it. I like shaking cages and causing waves. It's pretty dumb in the big picture: Making teachers mad. But I don't have much else to do unless it's petitioning... the damn Pebble Mine in Alaska in effort to preserve the marine life.

I don't give a shit about that. I'm not a nature person.

Basically I'm trying to find myself. I'm a pretty bottled up kid who is confused. I've always had a good, or at least satisfactory, bead on things. I knew myself enough, knew how I felt about things, etc. Now I'm all bothered. I don't know if I want to be a quiet introvert or an outgoing passionate. People say things I don't like or I have an opinion, I don't say it. I understand being reserved, but this is annoying. I once read a quote somewhere... I think it was from Che Guevara or someone like that. It went something like "If you quiver in anger at every outrage, you can.." stand by my side or in my army. I don't know. It inspired me, though. I want to be like that, but smart about it.

I also wouldn't mind ideas on how to piss off teachers for a simple satisfaction and outlet.

This is jargled and scattered, but I hope it gets the point across. Any advice?

[DarkGhost]

TEENAGERS, LOL

[The_Lawyer]

Pretty much, it's fucking annoying considering that what I'm saying is what every other kid says, just different. Kills me inside.

[Zoo]

She wasn't annoyed because you insulted mormonryl but because you uncovered the conspiracy!

but seriously, I don't think we ever "know who we are". we just are.

[Killaboy]

Not every kid says things like that. I'm a teenager but I don't really care who I really am.
Like Zoo said, I just am. Looking for your true self is just pointless sentimental shit.

Just kidding.

[Bunny]

Next test you have in that class, in the middle of the silence, make an incredibly loud and fleeting noise.

[st pauli]

LOL at your reply to the question

[Fleur]

I am pretty confused most of the time. I get too many views on each subject. My freinds always have that "we're young and fuck the world" opinion which has many strong arguments but overall is just naive and stupid. But all my freinds belive it to be that way, they never think of other views. Then my parrents also have a view and it's always clever but they're old and they don't understand a lot of things. The teachers gives a third view.

Everytime I think about my opinions on different stuff (not all things, general stuff) there are 40 different voices inside my head. One saying: But you have to think about. One saying no that can't be true. One saying bla bla bla. I feel just like you descriped it Lawyer, it's fucking annoying.

Yeah I'm a teenager and I know that's not something people connects with anything good. But it's not like I choosed it myself. I actually hope the "TEENAGERS, LOL" post is "teh reality" and one day, I'm going to let go of these fucked up views from everywere.

[Bunny]

I'm never really able to feel emotion in what I do, I just logically react to things that happen. If I wanted to, I could find humor in someone who broke their arm. The only real emotions I feel are disgust and anger. I want to be an animator when I'm older, or a musician. That's all I really can say about my 'destiny'.

[Robert Ninja]

Just be who you are. If you try too much you'll be this fake person and people can see that. Also, you'll be lying to yourself. Just get along with life and respond to it naturally.

[The_Lawyer]

That helps a bit. Thank you.

[Sam the Spy]

well if you get in big enough trouble to have the teach ask for your number to call home in front of the class, do what i did and give out pizzahut's number instead... i got my teacher to blush from imbassasment shortly before being sent up... i never seen a black guy turn red before that... my mom was laughing so hard she didnt care i got in trouble...

[Tyrant]

Wow that's reeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaallllllllyyyyy cool. pizzalolamirite?

As for the topic at hand:being introverted is cool. I like solitude, dislike most people, and if i disagree with someone/something I just let it go in my mind. It's not important anyway.


Desensitize.

[Mr. Clean]

Making trouble as a means of defining ones' self? Doesn't sound that healthy to me.

I started studying Aikido when I was 11, since then Budo has been core to my life. I guess I'd suggest searching for something you enjoy or find truly important and bettering yourself through that.

[Jardel]

If you want to be the next Che Guevara you better study hard, getting into medical school is pretty serious business, personally I recommend you go the whole way and get the MD so you can write prescriptions.

Of course, Che did actually do everything he's romanticised for out of his belief it had to be done, not as some sort of quest to find his own identity and be immortalized on t-shirts.

Rebelling to rebel is kinda exciting and can be fun, but in the end it's meaningless. You want to find out who you are, do everything you find meaningful and it'll come to you someday... or not. Either way you'll have something to look back on and think about.

[Genesis]

Ahh... 'tis a good thread, Lawyer - props to you.

But seriously, I feel like that all the time. I really think it's just a side effect of being a teenager; it sucks. For the past six to eight months I have felt nothing but loss or confusion. It's a bitch. I remember I took a test about a year ago. It was (for lack of a better title) that one you take where you have the four letters, and those are supposed to define who you are. An example would be "INTJ"; Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging.

First time I took it, I ended up as an ENFP. Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving. Second time I took that test, I ended up with the same score... Then, later on, I retook the test for a third time. That gave me an INFP.

The point I'm trying to make is that it will take time for us to figure out who we really are. Last school year I went through some major depression problems, but that experience also helped me figure out some things about myself. Every experience you go through ends up being something gained, regardless of the outcome; you learn.

[platinum baller]

Ok, this is how I did it-I don't know if it works for everybody, but hey. Simply pay attention to what you like doing, don't like doing, your outlook on life and such. Just pay attention to yourself and you'll not only gradually realise who you are, there will be random "revelations" every now and then which will switch the way you look at yourself, sort of "upgrading" it. This is a long process, but it does work...I think. Did for me. Try it some time. I figured out that I've got some of my father's manipulation skills and my mother's...well "mind control" skills. These combine to make living a lot easier. I also learned how my sense of humour works; the thought, the idea's creation and confusion, the corruption of the thought. Of course I usually bring people out of their confusion, unless the aformentioned manipulation skills are in action. Nah, they're only used as a last resort.

[Boss123]

Pretty much, it's fucking annoying considering that what I'm saying is what every other kid says, just different. But don't kill me inside.

[Chelsea]

Pretty dorky, but seriously, what age are you?

[Fleur]

Ahh... 'tis a good thread, Lawyer - props to you.

But seriously, I feel like that all the time. I really think it's just a side effect of being a teenager; it sucks. For the past six to eight months I have felt nothing but loss or confusion. It's a bitch. I remember I took a test about a year ago. It was (for lack of a better title) that one you take where you have the four letters, and those are supposed to define who you are. An example would be "INTJ"; Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging.

First time I took it, I ended up as an ENFP. Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving. Second time I took that test, I ended up with the same score... Then, later on, I retook the test for a third time. That gave me an INFP.

The point I'm trying to make is that it will take time for us to figure out who we really are. Last school year I went through some major depression problems, but that experience also helped me figure out some things about myself. Every experience you go through ends up being something gained, regardless of the outcome; you learn.

That's me you're talking about.