Not sure you read my post correctly or followed the whole discussion with my follow-up posts but I’ll reiterate, this was from the very first day I met her, not something that developed over time. And it’s not love, it’s just “Holy crap, this girl is awesome and I’d like to get to know her.”
Also I don’t think I’m risking depression in the face of rejection. I’m going into this KNOWING it’s the perfect example of the LITERAL definition of “a one in a million chance” so I’m very aware of the high probability of crash and burn. Will I be disappointed? Yes, of course. But it will be brief. Like day at most and likely closer to a couple of hours, if not less.
And given it’s likely my last session with her regardless of what I do, here are the scenerios:
A) I don’t say anything and I never see her again. Then spend who knows how long agonizing over "What if?"
B) I do say something, get rejected and I never see her again. Spend a little time disappointed then move on.
In either of those cases, I never see her again but B gives me closure. Then of course there’s the highly unlikey scenerio of…
C) I do say something and we meet socially and I’ve added someone I believe is amazing to my life.
Of course, there’s always the possibility of D and she turns out to be some psyco lady and makes my life hell (think Fatal Attraction movie).