I don’t know why exactly I am making this post, I guess it just feels good to get it off my chest. Hitman has always been one of my favorite game series, perhaps even my favorite. I would go as far to say I am a fanboy. It’s a series I have played for years all the way back to the original Codename 47. There is just no other games like it, it is very standout and unique. Unfortunately for me, despite how hard it is. Today I had to make a commitment to myself to give up the Franchise. The reason is rather crazy most people probably won’t understand and it is embarrassing for me, but if you clicked and you’re reading this I guess I owe it to you.
Earlier this year I came across something strange on Marrakech. In the basement/garage area of the Swedish embassy, in the back room with the stairwell leading up to the ground level of the embassy (where the wrench and crowbar are located)
I saw a peculiar placed coin under the shelf next to the crowbar. I haven’t any idea how it got there. I thought it was strange because I never seen it there before, and it was a bit out of reach. I didn’t put it there intentionally myself so I just assumed that I have either missed it in the past, or perhaps the game was updated. I decided to ignore it and just move on, it did stick in my head though. For some reason months later, in late july I decided to see if the coin was still there, and it wasn’t. So you are probably asking, so what? Well I have Schizophrenia and when I come across weird happenings like that, I get shot into an existential crisis. Am I real, is the world real, is my wife, are my kids… am I in a dream world the Matrix maybe? If I can’t explain something reationally enough my head runs crazy with other ideas that can explain it.
Since then I have thought up other possibilities, Since I often have gotten into gun fights on that map the main idea I have now is perhaps I killed a guard in that room that did have a coin and because of wonky physics or perhaps the explosive gas canister in the room, it ended up tucked away in that corner.
Because at the time I wasn’t worried about it. I never made a mental note of what else had happened, just that I saw a coin there, thought that it was weird, and didn’t put it there myself. So I am missing a lot of the context that prevents me from making a clear picture. And there really is nothing concrete or simple enough that can explain it for me.
Anyway, in early august I basically moved on and it didn’t bother me as much as originally. One day I decided to play hitman again because an elusive target I never got, and well it got stuck in my head again and it’s all I can think about. Because of this and because of my personal responsibilities to my work and family. I had to sadly make the commitment to myself to stop playing Hitman. I don’t think I will ever be able to touch anything Hitman related without that memory overtaking me. It is very sad for me as I mentioned it’s one of my favorite franchises and Hitman 2 is right around the corner , and I was very much looking forward to it (and my collectors addition duck). Sadly i’ll have to pass that up.
Hitman is a great series and one I enjoyed very much. I will miss my globe trotting assassin adventures with 47. Today I hang up my shiny red tie and garrote for good. I will miss you Hitman.
I hope you all have a great time playing this series hopefully for many more years to come.