You are free now, my son. - Jesus 
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Finally, after over 3 months of apartment renovations, I have my old internet back. Goodbye and good riddance 1-3 MB/s download speeds 
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So last night our family dog passed away. Ponyo. She was 13, so was basically near the end of her life, but still, it was all so suddenā¦ We expected more of a sign, or gradual decline, butā¦ that was not to be.
Itāsā¦ gonna be weird, and sad for a while Iām sure. Iām mostly afraid of how this might affect me today, this week, next month, etc. Not sure if I should inform my manager at work about this just in case, but that probably seems wise?
I think it still hasnāt fully hit me yet because Iām still in shock about the whole thing. It all just unfolded so fast.
She was perfectly fine yesterday morning. By sheer coincidence, my sister is back in town this week to visit a friend/loiter around the Taylor Swift venue if she can get a ticket. So she was happy to see her, and the whole family was here to comfort her in her final momentsā¦
But, around dinner time yesterday, after sheād been taken for a walk, she stayed outside to lie down as usual. When we brought her in after like 30-40 mins, sheād refused to stand up or walk to the door on her own. She sat down, and immediately collapsed into a lying down position. Lots of heavy breathing, and occasional grunt or moan, and this āheavingā motion in her belly.
We finally decided after an hour of just waiting to see if this āweak/sicknessā got any better āokay, we need to know if we can make her more comfortable, and what this isā and took her to the vetā¦
They informed us that she had significant internal bleeding in her abdomen! Probably from some sort of rupture or lesion, maybe from some cancerous growth somewhere, that just decided to rip open? (sheās had some weird lumps and bumps pop up in the last 2 years, but weāve never noticed her seem to complain or be irritated by it)
ughā¦ why did it have to go this wayā¦
So we, uh had to all make the call that yes, she should be euthanised, since any work that could be done for her, probably wouldnāt make the rest of her life any easierā¦
We gave her so many cuddles. She was so softā¦ She was such a nice dog. Loved any stranger she could meet (would be a terrible guard dog) ā and she even met my D&D group on Monday when I hosted, which was nice!
This is justā¦ such a weird feeling in my body right now. I woke up 30 mins ago, havenāt gone downstairs to have breakfast yet. But thatāll be weird. And when I return from work, sheās always happy to see whoās at the doorā¦ not anymoreā¦
Thankfully today is a day off for me, so I can rest and sit with thisā¦ Still, she was the best dog, she always deserved the bestā¦ 
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Iāve had to put several pets down and lost a few naturally too. It never gets easy.
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My condolences. Iāve learned in the past few years how hard this is, and itās one of the few tragedies that I wish on absolutely no one.
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Oh brother sorry to hear that, severance through Feb is pretty nice though.
Best of luck looking for something new.
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Red Cup Day today at starbucks. Meaning everyone who gets a holiday drink gets a free reusable plastic cup. (They never use it and come back with it for a drink discount anyway uugh) And people loooove free stuff so today is usually like the busiest day of the year.
I only worked half of my 8 hour shift today.
Cried at work once, needed to a 2nd time later, but my eyes were too dry.
It was crazy busy, very overwhelming atmosphere with so many people there, all the sounds, and me trying to keep track of my tasks while also thinking a lot about Ponyo and how much she meant to people.
I feel guilty for leaving the team in the middle of the school lunch rush, but my manager was very accomodating and wanted to know what I thought is the best move for me. So, I chose "I can stay till X, but Iām just not feeling confident enough to make it through today: .
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@TheChicken You did the right thing, making sure to look after yourself. Thinking of you.
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Iāve had periods of being mentally overwhelmed where itās hard not to break down at work. I know what itās like as I get easily overwhelmed if a lot is happening around me at once also. Especially when youāre dealing with a lot outside of work it makes it even worse. Best you can do in that situation is get to a place to calm down. If you try to push through it youāll probably just make yourself feel worse by the end of it. Do something that helps you relax from reading, a tv show, video game, or get support from family and friends. Sometimes having a quiet time of doing nothing can be relaxing.
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My family returned from a trip in Sweden visiting relatives. They brought back home some stuff for me.
Iām personally looking forward to snacking on the candy. I loved the candy my family gave me from Sweden last Christmas.
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@EvilGeniusRo @Accidental_Kills98
https://www.reddit.com/r/DiscoElysium/s/o61zCkuTEB
(Both the photos and the top-rated comment in the thread from the OP)
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Hey I saw that when I was on there yesterday.
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Today felt somewhat scattered for a few reasons. However, it did lead to me being 90% done with my latest cartoonā¦ 
I also got Just Dance to work on my Xbox with Ubisoftās stupid game controller app. This is after having not played it in 2 years since their Kinect support ended. It was totally awesome to play it again and made all my stress temporarily melt away 
I hope your day had a nice element to it as well, my friends
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I have an unexpected free day and the house all to myself. I turned on Hitman for the first time in along while and I had forgotten how good the post Sapienza cut scene is. Really get you interested in who Grey is and pulls you deeper into the story / l remember it left me wanting to know more immediately which was impossible bc of the episodic release.
Sadly the post Paris cutscene wonāt play in offline mode.
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Sorry for the double post but then itās followed up by the first time you see the Constant! Highly recommend anyone who hasnāt seen the cutscenes in a while at least go do that*. Iām gonna go full playthrough now Iām so excited.
*remember you have to actually beat the Maldives and NY to see their cutscenes 
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From my YouTube recap for Gaming:
Genuinely complete coincidence
The GOAT (sorry WoA)
Did I ever mention Tactical Breach Wizards?
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Havenāt been visiting here for a while. The studying part is going smoothly and the assigned professors and TAs are excellent. Social life is complicated as always. Far too many people to deal with doesnāt make it any better.
Iām already working part time, remotely teaching mathematics to highschoolers. I need to extend that as family is being quite unsupportive.
In other news, I might be having my first girlfriend (both sides being bit unsure) and itās a pretty different deal with many aspects to figure out for the first time.
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I won a free steam copy of persona 4 golden in a giveaway so thatās cool
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Well as an early Christmas present my cousin gifted me his old gaming PC! This marks the first time Iāve had a computer with a dedicated GPU (GTX 1060 6GB), no more Intel HD Graphics for me! It feels very weird going from a computer that I wouldnāt dare try running Hitman on to one that can run it smoothly at 1080p!
I technically have the World of Assassination Part One on Epic, but the store doesnāt consider it something I bought. When they gave Hitman 2016 away free several years back I claimed the access pass for Hitman 3 too. I will probably get the whole WoA Deluxe Edition sometime cause I want to try out Peacock, but even though itās on sale right now $45 seems like a lot for a game I already own and have 1309 hours in.
But of course the coolest thing about having it on PC is I have access to Ansel and can take lovely screenshots like this:
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