i feel trapped. currently right now im sitting on the sidewalk at my job sipping on a redbull typing this out cause i just need to put it somewhere.
constant feeling of walking on eggshells, that’s apart of a larger list of issues. no sign of improvement on their end. job search ceased in favor of the tumultuous task of trying to get disability. meanwhile every little mistake I make is treated as a damning thing. can’t enjoy my hobbies without comments being made about feeling alone. any opportunity of trying to save money is non existent when all they want is to eat out.
they just self loathe, and make threats against their person when a minor inconvenience happens. im just emotionally exhausted, confused, and want to sleep.
i have more i want to say, but bills need to be paid and i gotta go back working to inevitably be meant with the same thing with no reason sign of change.
anywho. see ya.