This isnāt really an issue post, I just didnāt know exactly where to put it.
But I think this is the best Iāve felt in a long time. Iāve had occasional suspicions in the last couple years that I have undiagnosed depression (I still havenāt talked to anyone about it) and really struggled with motivation in getting things done or being productive, I barely scraped by the last couple years of school, but I just started a med change for my ADHD and I think itāll work better. And Iāve put my pride aside and finally committed to actually go to fucking therapy for once and talk about it. Things arenāt perfect but itās a start.
So, honestly, not too bad? Iāll take enduring over struggling, personally, even though it does feel like the latter a lot of the time. In case anyone else is interested, itās around 50 questions in length.
Seriously though, and as someone who had heavy professional help, and current maintenance on it. Including multiple professional screenings.
Donāt take the ones you can find on the internet as actionable indicators.
Real ones, the one you can use to go further are well crafted. Usually they are less about general feelings toward yourself, and more about situations, well-defined, surprisingly mundane, common, and then cross referenced.
And never with just results, always explained, back and forth discussed, and debriefed with a professional.
Best is to identify not you general being, but your true needs. And from that, at least thatās what the structure that helped me did, make an adequate demand program.
Itās then less about finding the great truth that liberate, and more about doing the dumb work on it.
Whatever it is, wherever you are mentally. I hope you will do well, or at least donāt feel too terrible.
Sadly life is full of ups and downs and we gotta work through it. Wishing you luck that youāll be able to get to a better place where youāre happy soon.
You are succeeding in staying mentally well. Stay on track and re-assess from time to time.
Not to say everthing is just peachy, especially not in January but I donāt want to talk about that now, but Iāve been rolling with the punches and find myself smiling more often then not.
I havenāt been doing the best lately. Recently Iāve been dealing with a new episode of depression and the people around me havenāt helped. In the past Iāve always had the support of my friends online when Iām down but after a stupid drama occurred in my friend group they kept pressuring me to pick a side. I decided to not get involved but that just made me lose them. I used to hang out with them multiple times a week but now I barely hear from them anymore or they just outright ignore me and donāt reply. Itās been upsetting me because I just want things to go back to when they were better but they canāt. I think Iāve been struggling to accept that and finally move on.
Besides that Iāve had lots of changes in my life (some good, some bad) from a new job, learning to adjust my schedule, trying to go back to college, and other crap thatās been making it really difficult for me to deal with all this in a short period of time. I have autism which doesnāt really make it any easier. Whenever my routines or things around me change itās difficult to adjust. But with so much happening at once I just feel constantly overwhelmed and upset.
My family hasnāt been helping me during this either. A few days ago I was feeling depressed so I just laid in bed all day. Then one of my family members decided a great idea would be to yell at me while in that state. I couldnāt handle it and just mentally shut down and burst into tears.
Itās just been feeling much harder to deal with than in the past because I donāt feel like I have my old friends or family to support me. I think feeling lonely has been the main contributor to how Iām doing right now.
Idk I felt like I needed to let this out somewhere. Itās two in the morning and this has been eating me up inside the last few hours.
I am sorry about that friend group. Not picking a side sounds to me like the best move, especially if the dispute was over something silly. Weāve all had those canāt do anything except lay in bed days. Donāt let it happen again tomorrow though. Even if it seems impossible at least put your shoes on and go for a walk outside. If you get the shoes on then the rest is easy. Anyway I hope youāre feeling better soon.
PS: 2 am huh? We got another central time zone guy here!
Luckily I havenāt had this happen again since it occurred a few days ago. Even if Iām not feeling the best I just try to force myself to do something whether it be simple like sitting outside. Also Iām in the Eastern Standard Time Zone, not CMT.
I think Iāll use the time I have to relax and just focus on things I enjoy. I have the next 3 days off of work. So Iām thinking Iāll do some baking to keep my mind focused on something else. Havenāt decided what yet. Thanks @Yacob
