Iāll stick around for the next hour for you 
Youāve done everything right, and pampered her more than most even think to, and now youāre doing her one last service. She couldnāt have a better family than you two
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@Gontranno47 is right, youāve done everything right, and youāve given her a wonderful home.
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Itās done. Oh my God, sheās gone! It doesnāt feel real. But I closed the circle, did for her what I couldnāt for Peggy before her. We did it right. Sheās at rest now, in no more pain. But I miss her so much already. Thank you all for your support. Iām gonna be a wreck for a while. Allow me to share my last picture of her.
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It doesnāt feel right, but youāve done the right thing. Neither of you are going to be okay for a while, and I know thereās things to arrange and take care of, but remember to take care of yourselves too. Itās normal to grieve and thatāll take as long as it takes.
You know weāll be here for you through this
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Donāt worry Heisenberg, youāll meet again 
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I wish you lots of strength. Itās never easy to lose a family member. If you need anything, donāt hesitate to get in touch.
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Sorry for your loss. That is never easy.
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Iām feeling very conflicted,that I canāt even explain, Iāll try to put everything in context, but I need to load off a little.
I donāt know the woman who gave birth to me, I have only two (maybe three ) memories of her and neither of them are positiveā¦though one of them isnāt a huge deal if you are older than 5 y/o.
So; this woman just died a few weeks ago.
What you have to know, that I have a half brother, who grew up with herā¦ we are on speaking terms, but ever since I live abroad, we barely speak to each other.
So one day, at work, my boss told me, that my phone is blowing up, I should check it.
Several missed calls from my parents and a message from my mother to call her, because my brother canāt get a hold of me. ( my stepmom actually, but I always looked at her as a mother figure)
I told my boss, that itās very weird, either my lilbro gets married or my biological mother died. - as a joke
I called her, Iāve joked with it again, but she did confirmed it, that yes, she is dead.
My direct response was: āWelp. Anyway how are you?ā
After that it started bugging me, that I donāt feel grief, but I should to some extent, at least out of respect. There is a little sadness though, because now I canāt get to know herā¦ yet I had/have no desire to.
After that, this kind ofā¦ emptiness turned into anger, then into a giant question mark.
When her autopsy was done, it revealed, that she died of pneumonia.
According to my brother she wasnāt well for months on end, even had a spitbucket filled with vomit and coughed up blood.
She refused to go to see a doctor, instead she bought a cough medicine, saying that doctors would prescribe the same.
In short, she got sick with something minor, very treatableā¦ cured in a few days.Left it untreated for god knows how long; Eventually her lungs collapsed, filled up with blood and choked on it.
It bothers me to no end, that Iām angry at her for dying in very stupid way, yet idgaf about her.
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So Iāve finally realised why my new TV Tropes account was banned with no further explantation; this one mod named Fighteer is a raging asshole.
And donāt take it from me, even Tropers before me have said Fighteer has a history of being an abusive little shit.
Apparently he was also behind the mega-popular Complete Monster and Magnificent Bastard threads being shut down permanently.
Because of this one assholeās grudge against me, I canāt edit or even message the Moderators again.
What a loser
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An asshole and a loser, with power over other peopleās rights and privileges. Seems to be going around.
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Hello I donāt know the circumstances between you and your birth mother, but itās okay not to feel a sense of loss from her death. It sounds like she wasnāt a major part of your grown life, and thatās why this didnāt have an emotional effect on you. But at the same time, she was your biological mother and so often is the case that we want to get to know someone after we find out thatās no longer possible 
You donāt have to be heartbroken by her death, itās okay to just respect that she was here, and be concerned for the way she went. You can have concern for her without needing to be 100% invested. Maybe thereās someone you can talk to, to get to know her better?
And if you canāt get anywhere with that, maybe this could at least be a reminder to reach out to someone you havenāt contacted in a long while
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Well, it took several days of emailing more moderators, but my account was finally approved. Donāt have much big plans with the account, just fixing a bunch of stuff and editing a few media pages.
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Being in a blossoming relationship has been great. This wont be the typical Serious Post. Itās very good, emotional itās been healing, physically itās been intense.
Theyāre always reading my body language, how I react to things. Their form of love and affection isnāt as clear, but Iāve picked up on the behavior to where I can identify it.
But it becomes very clear when they do things that makes me tick. Previous thoughts donāt exist anymore when this happens and theyāre always telling me how cute I get when it happens. Itās a moment where I need composure cause the feelings are very intense. They ask me why I do that, and I explain that when I close my eyes and take deep breaths after that itās just me attempting to regulate myself so it doesnāt go into pure instinct mode where Iām making decisions purely off impulse and desire rather than decisions with thought behind them.
The issue, is they know that composing myself can only do so much. Overload can and will happen, they know how to push buttons and the things that make us tick work in tandem and synergies extremely well. In a way it can be viewed as exploitative. But fortunately when boundaries are pushed between them and I. Consent comes first.
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Found out my boss and another superior call me transphobic nicknames behind my back and keep joking around every time I use the toilet if I sit down or stand up for it.
Also they call me āitā.
This in addition to saying I have no brain cells whenever I make a mistake.
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Wow. Justā¦wow. Iām so sorry, Freezer. 
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Could human resources maybe help you with that? Iām sorry that people are assholes.
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We donāt have an HR department cause itās a small company.
But also the last job I had an issue like this at, HR told me it was my fault for not establishing clear boundaries. HR often likes to defend the employer, not the employee.
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They are fucking assholes
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Wow. Sorry to hear that. The boss no less. I say try and find a new job, a small company with assholes as bosses donāt deserve any employees.
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